Surprise

Have you ever heard the expression that life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans?

So true this week. Our house deal did not go through. After a weekend of believing that I am seriously screwed, I am now feeling better. Thanks in large part to my friend Victoria (the other one) who gave me a call on Saturday and told to me to get the heck down to her place in London so she can take care of me. So I am down here all week with her and her husband and two daughters. I am starting to realize just how much I need other people around me .. fortunately I have friends who were able to point this out to me even before I realized it myself.

It's easy to look at the downside of all of this, but I am finally starting to see how much more helpful it is to look at the good things that this situation is causing. So many people to help, so many people who care. It's been this way ever since Barry and I split up, and I am very grateful.

I am also proud of how Barry and I both handled this latest problem. .. let's just say that it's all pretty typical of how the real estate game is played by some people. Bottom line is that we play fair. And if the other side doesn't, we can't play with that particular person or people.

And despite what I said in my previous entry on moving day about Barry being bitchy, I saw some glimpses again over the weekend of him at his best. Reminds me of why I still love him. Even though I do know we can't be to each other what we used to be.

So now everything is up in the air. We have another couple who are very hot to put in an offer .. they were disappointed that they missed out last time. So things don't look as bleak as they looked in the middle of the night.

There may be a delay while all this works out and I'm not sure at this point I'll go to Nova Scotia right away or wait until the spring. If I do wait until the spring, I'm thinking of spending the winter in Windsor. There are a lot of good reasons to do this. Since I can't afford to go somewhere warm like California.

I' m still working it out and convincing myself that this isn't the big crisis it appears to be. I have options and people who love me.

More later. I'm doing okay. Not the best I've ever been, but okay.