Loving What Is

The Way I Want to Feel all the Time

Hey folks -- it's been a while.

This picture was taken up at my mom and dad's place on Eagle Lake near North Bay Ontario a couple of weeks ago. It was an incredible week on the lake and I felt so good.

I need to remember that. I'm doing well, all things considering but am a little bogged right now. The house closes on Friday -- good word for it, eh? "Closes" -- not just "sells". It's closure.

Doesn't feel like that right now. The last boxes are always the hardest ones to pack up. And I just sorted through the Christmas decorations to pack a few to take with me back to Bear River. Went through old Christmas cards. It was like walking backwards. And yeah, it hurt but I think I'm at the point where I can let it.

And now I'm feeling better, ready to move a few more boxes. I need to remember the feeling that I had when I threw my hands up in the air that day on the lake and said "Whatever".

I almost am able to mean that ... some days more than others. Learning to let go ... let things be what they are. And even learning how to enjoy what they are. Even if it's not exactly what we had in mind for ourselves.

Sometimes there are better plans in the wind ... if we can just ride with it.